Lose It

On one day, there was a sunrise. 

Today there is rain. 

Today I have never been nothing. 

I just have to figure out who I am. 

It is such a big question. 

There's so much water flowing through 

This waterfall, even though it looks peaceful 

From far away. 

The fish swim behind a rock, 

Trying to fight the current. 

I want to join them but I

Have forgotten how to swim. 

It snuck up on me, this forgettance of self. 

All I used to know was the fight against change. 

I knew how to stay still. 

The rain has soaked me to the bone. 

I have gone with the current. 

It is not spring and I am not a salmon 

And I don't know how to swim back up. 

I am here and I don't know what here is 

And I don't know where I've been and 

I don't care to know where I am going.