So much to ask

Those who truly know you 
say that you are the 
essence of all solutions, — 
that you are the answer itself. 
So have mercy on my state as I 
ask this question: 
Why does lust taste sweet like honeycomb..? 
Is it not vile to want some body 
and reject their soul? — for it 
would be a moving corpse 
I seek and not the 
life which breathes (your presence). 

A composure is hard to sustain 
if I stand on mountainous slopes. 
How easy it is to tumble with 
laughter, to immolate 
myself in carelessness — 
an avalanche of fire. 
Goodness is the ultimate liberty, and yet 
it feels like a punishment 
I pursue; temptation rings bells of 
reward, but the ringer hides a dagger 
behind him.

O, Lord, bring clarity to my dark side, before 
it betrays the lighter half.